My Scottish Rose

By I.M. Ulysses

Words without meaning
Have cluttered my ears
Reminding me always
That you are not here

Why did you leave
When we had each other
When the days looked so bright
And our hearts were aflutter

Were you afraid
Of where it could lead
Sharing our feelings
And living our dreams

Or did the night scare you
As I held you close
Kissing your face
As the morning sun rose

You didn't resist me
As I drew you out
Opening doors
Without any doubt

I was your loyal
Most faithful friend
Who wouldn't have failed you
Time without end

Please tell me the secret
That guards your deaf heart
That pulled us together
Then tore us apart

Where are you now
In who's arms have you fled
Since you moved on
And left me for dead

I wish you well
Was your last refrain
And it grieves me to think
That I caused you such pain

But forgetting you now
I can't easily do
And though you've departed
I still miss you

For truly I know
Where my heart belongs
And though I deny it
My feelings are strong

They keep me awake
During the night
Restlessly tossing
Until dawn's early light

I think of you now
As I did way back then
In the years of our parting
Till I found you again

They say I'm a dreamer
That I should let go
But they never made
Those angels of snow

Bumped close together
Their wings and heads merged
Just like one person
That from two had converged

Such are two people
When drawn together
Their spirits entwined
From that time forever

Such were we once
And still, we remain
'Till God in His mercy
Restores time again

But until that moment
Should it ever come
My heart remains captive
In your heart's dungeon

Waiting in silence
My life passes by
In the shadows of love
Which I can't deny

You're all that I wanted
I have nothing left
No pride, and no pretence
I gave you the rest

Yet I was unworthy
And my hopes were all dashed
Just like a leper
That you have outcast

Who's going to find me
Who'll lift my head
As I lie here dreaming
Of you, in my bed

Am I to be woken
As from a bad dream
Only to find
A love unredeemed

Or am I to wallow
In this helplessness
Trapped in the sorrows
Of my own foolishness

This I can't say
Nor have I been shown
As I wander this world
Until I'm reborn

Such is my fate
And the cup God has given
Of it I must drink
Until I'm forgiven

The dawn, though, is coming
And the sun will shine bright
Raising me from
This broken heart's night

On that fine morning
I will again stand
Ready and willing
To take one more chance

Once more to discover
That which was lost
Remembering always
The price that it cost

For no flower ever
Has cut me so deeply
Nor have I ever
Loved so completely

Your mark is upon me
This burden I carry
Until God restores that
Which makes the heart merry

For now, though, I wait
In silent repose
A lonely vigil
For my Scottish Rose